i'm sorry

yesterday, I got something from my friend. she said that it was given by her mother. My feeling mixed at that time. I felt happy, but also guilty. I was happy because her mother did not forget me, although we haven't seen each other for a long time, but the reason why I was happy was also the reason why I felt guilty. Actually, I have regarded her mother as my mother beside my own mother.

Honestly,,,
I really want to meet her,but I'm afraid, I don't know why,
one day, Insya Allah, in a right time, I'll visit you mom and hold your hand,
but I need much longer time....
I still need much longer time to gather my courage,
I really miss you mom. I never meant to hurt you. I hope you can understand me......

I'm sorry, mom