a letter from a killed baby

hi, mom.....

my length is just  2cm now...
I love you, mom..........
your heartbeat sound is the most beautiful music that fills my days

the second month

mom....I'm learning to suck my small fingers...that's so fun, mom
here is warm...
if I go out later, I want to play with you, mom


the third month

mom... I don't know my sex yet...but what I want to be later,  I hope mom and dad happy with 
mom..
you must promise not to cry
you know, mom? if you cry, I also cry...hu..hu....huhuuuuu
although you can't hear my crying yet,,,,
I am so sad, mom
believe, mom... God must give the best for your life, whatever it is...

the fourth month

mom..... my hair has grown... it becomes my new toy... hahahaha
and then, I can turn my head to left and right
I also can move my fingers hands and feet
I also can hear your singing

the fifth month

mom, you see a doctor today, right?!
what did he said, mom?
what is abortion...???

mom, I'll be ok, right?!


mom, suddenly I feel afraid... I love you mom
I'm alright, mom...I'm healthy

the sixth month

mom, you saw that bad doctor again, right???
what will he do, mom??


mom, this doctor wants to break my house
mom, this is not time to me to get out
mom, tell this doctor, please...
mom, this doctor inserts the sharp tools
mom, this tool cut my hair
mom, help me...
I really love you, mom
I promise to make you happy
don't you love me, mom???

mom, this sharp tool cuts my feet...that's so hurt, mom...hu.....hu...huuuuuuu

what is my mistake, mom?

although I have no feet, but I still have hands to hug you, my beloved mother

mom, tell this doctor to stop this..
help me, mom
this tool starts to cut my hands....it's so hurt, mom....hu...hu...huuuuuuuuu

what is my mistake, mom???

although I have no feet and hands, I still have ears, mouth, eyes, nose, and others
I still have an opportunity to see my beloved mother's face
I still can say, " I love you, mom"


oh, momm
this tool kepp cutting, now it is cutting my neck...
it's so hurt...
help me, mom,,,,

the seventh month

mom, I'm alright... I'm in heaven with God now
God has returned my hands, feet, and others
and God whispered me what abortion was
mom, why you don't you want to play with me?
what is my mistake?
why did you kill me???
mom, that was so hurt while I was cutting by that tool
I have opportunity to life, mom!!!

"oh, God, forgive my mom...."