last night, I did my structure assignments, I rather confused in doing that, but I didn't give up.

Finally, I could finish all of them, but I wasn't sure that they were right or not...

undmindful, I decided to go bed without checking my phone messages...

at 5 in the morning, I woke up and took my phone. There was an unread message, that was from my chairperson, she told that we had no structure class this morning. after reading that I decided to sleep again....

I arrived at campus before 10 a.m, because there was another class that have to be attended. before entering the class, I met my friend and he said that the lecturer didn't come...finally, I went to campus without taking any lecturing...

I'm confused....
I didn't know how to write, there's nothing interesting to share now,...
;(

but I'll keep writing...

now, i'm at the little mosque of fbs, the rain is falling down....
the rain isn't hard just drizzle...but it's enough to make me doubt about attending the next class, because the location of that class (mku) is far enough from here ....
:D
 that's all,....
;p

pudarnya pesona cleopatra

I like reading novels. "Pudarnya pesona cleopatra" is my favorite one. in this novel told a man that have studied his study in Egypt. then he came back to his country, Indonesia. Living in a long time in Egypt made him loved the cleopatras. he always wanted to marry one of them, but his mother asked him to marry a woman that she has chosen for him. actually, he didn't love her, because there was only cleopatra's shadow in his mind. But, he didn't want to make his mother sad, so he accepted to marry that woman.

in his marriage, he behaved so cool toward his wife because he didn't love her. it made that woman so sad, but she didn't show that feeling. she always tried to be a good wife. finally, she was pregnant and she asked her husband's permission to stay at her parents house. he gave his permission happily, because it meant that he could be alone without her at home.

during his wife staying at her parents house, he never visited her. after several months, he found some letters that written by her wife and they are wrote for him. in her letters, his wife told about her feeling that she loved her husband so much and how sad she was because her husband didn't care about her. reading those letters have made the cleopatras' shadow gone from his mind and they replaced by his wife shadow. and then he realized that he love her. he went to his parents in law's house to meet his wife. but, his mother in law said that he couldn't meet her because she has gone, she has died, and her son too. knowing that made him very sad, he cried so loud. he very regretted that he didn't realize that feeling early.

in short, this story said that we would not realize that we love someone until he/ she dissappeared from ourlives.......

I have a cat and I gave it a name "cume". I got inspiration to give it that name from watching upin & ipin.
cume is a very cute cat. he has orange, black and white fur. his brown eyes are very beautiful. I love him very much....

one day, cume went outside but he didn;t back home at the evening like usual. three days latter he came back, but he wasn't alone. a female cat followed him. then, I know why he didn't came back home 3 days ago. several weeks later, the female cat's stomach became bigger. she was pregnant! and then I looked for cume. I asked him whether that female cat pregnant because of him, he looked me and seemed understand what I said. and then I assumed that he said yes.... I laughed at that time and not forget to congratulates him!!!

SKUT

I just read this novel...and it made me cried successfully...
this novel tell about a true story,
the little girl named keke, she sufferred from avery dangerous disease, it was Rabdomiosarkoma, a kind of cancer, and she was just 13 years old at that time!
that cancer had made her beautiful face looked like a monster....

she wanted that cancer go away from her body, so she did many kind of treatments. and she did chemotherapy taht made all of her hair fell down, she was very sad but she did'nt give up until one day the doctor said that the cancer had gone away from her body, she was so happy but it coul'nt stand long.... several months later that cancer came back but in another part of her body. she trid to get chemotherapy again but the hospital didn't give her excuse for that, they were afraid that something bad would happen to her body if she did it again  because she just done chemotherapy in several times ago. but, her father didn't give up, finally she got taht treatment but it made her condition worse and the doctors said that they gave up, they couldn't move the cancer like before. that fact made keke realized that her life would be ended but in the rest of her life she tried to do everything like usual and made the people around her happy. finally, she died in her 16 ages...
hhhhh.....

this story happened when I was in elementaary school. that day, while we were studying in the class, one of my friends saw some doctors and nurses from the nearest health center came into the teacher office. then he whispered it to us. my friends and I started to guess what happened later. we guesst that we would get immunization or more familiar as "suntik cacar". our guessing had proved not more than 5 minutes later. those people came in to our class followed by our teacher. the teacher locked the door.

Then, I saw a doctor came closer to me. I was really afraid at that time. I did'nt want to get any injection. the girl next to me held my hand and she said,"don't afraid. it doesn't hurt. just like an ant bites you." I saw her and thougt how brave this girl was! she wasn't afraid of that. next, that doctor started to inject me. I just closed my eyes while the doctor doing her job. after that, I opened my eyes. I was relieved that it didn't as hurt as I thougth before. then, I saw the girl next to me. she smiled and looked so brave. I looked her feet. hey! what's strong?! they were trembling! oh, I thought that she wasn't as brave as I thought before. then, I looked around. I saw some of my friends weare crying and...hey! what was that boy doing? he climbed the wall!! finally, he got injection too.....
:p

i'm sorry

yesterday, I got something from my friend. she said that it was given by her mother. My feeling mixed at that time. I felt happy, but also guilty. I was happy because her mother did not forget me, although we haven't seen each other for a long time, but the reason why I was happy was also the reason why I felt guilty. Actually, I have regarded her mother as my mother beside my own mother.

Honestly,,,
I really want to meet her,but I'm afraid, I don't know why,
one day, Insya Allah, in a right time, I'll visit you mom and hold your hand,
but I need much longer time....
I still need much longer time to gather my courage,
I really miss you mom. I never meant to hurt you. I hope you can understand me......

I'm sorry, mom